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I took magic mushrooms and realized that as a 30 year old woman I am terrified of my sexuality
I am not an unattractive woman. I’m tall and blonde and I got male attention early. I have had two marriages that failed. I am in another relationship now that is incredibly healthy and we’ve been together three years. Last weekend I took mushrooms for the first time. I wish I would have done it so much earlier. It’s helped me realize a lot of baggage I’ve been carrying around and also brought up a lot of feelings that I’ve been pushing down for way too long.
I do not know what I want sexually. I know a few things I like, but my entire sexual history has been me being heavily pursued by men, them having an insatiable sexual appetite, and me doing what I can to meet their needs. No one forced me into this. This was my decision and this became my normal. I realized I am terribly insecure about my sexuality. I am sad that I am just now realizing this as a 30 year old. I am terrified of rejection and very turned on by being heavily desired. I feel empty. I have not been honest with my partner about my insecurities until today. Of course, he was wonderful and incredibly supportive and wants to help me work through all these things. I know this is a good thing, I’m just mad because I’m realizing that my entire life I’ve made sex about how attractive I am to my partner and let them totally pursue me and set the bar for any sexual activity.
I am not confident. I have been pretending to be confident. I have made my happiness someone else’s responsibility. I am lost and afraid and I feel like I am once again a child. I am completely overwhelmed by how to even begin to discovery my sexuality. I am committed to being honest with myself and my partner, however, right now I feel like I want to run away and hide.
Thanks for reading. If you have any advice or can relate to this type of experience I’m happy to listen and discuss.
DiscreteAndShy: My wife and I didn’t make these revelations until we were WELL into our ’30s, late’30s. Some people NEVER figure that shit out. Go easy on yourself kid, it sounds like you might have a great partner to go through with this. Good luck!
KliityKat: I honestly think a lot of women do this. We are socialized to sexualize ourselves.
zenith-zen: Props for using psychedelics for personal growth and improvement rather than just purr recreation.
Better late than never to make these discoveries about yourself. Best of luck in the future 🙂
knowitallz: Aren’t mushrooms great? They give you the honest emotional truth. Wow. Cool for you that you have this foresight into your life now. Write down how this is going because the reset to normal thinking goes quickly.
NormStanFletcher: 30’s are the best time of your life. Now that you’ve come to a few realizations, make it work for you.
delderface: I cant help but wonder what your new sexuality will like! Have fun
IheartX0X0: For a lot of people being able to talk through it has actually solved people’s problems. Something about getting it out in the open and talking about it can help.
Benji_81: Great. Now chill and go some place nice and relaxing with best friends then take 1/2 LSD dose and then come back to report :).
chulocolombian: I’m confused at the contradiction. You state you are not an attractive woman but are tall and blonde. And that you have 2 failed marriages and that men are lusting after you. What?