Christina Ricci – Bel Ami
I [19F] have just felt pleasure from penetration for the first time. Here are my thoughts.
Hello, everyone. I’ve just had an enlightening few days and wanted to share my experience with you.
Some background: I am nineteen and a virgin. I’ve been in one ‘sexual’ relationship before my current, and that ex, while good with his hands, followed the maxim “suck it, fuck it, or leave it alone.” [editor’s note: this particular fella did not reciprocate oral, and while I would never pressure an SO into doing that, it became obvious there was an imbalance after a bit].
Having never been fingered, and relying on clitoral stimulation for my own orgasms, I’ve never gotten much in the way of penetration. I didn’t begin masturbating until the age of 15; since then I have definitely experimented with my fingers and had some great orgasms on the occasion I’d try fitting a few on a whim.
Had some great orgasms. Or so I thought.
Well, my SO and I have been together for a few months. He’s never been in a relationship, but this hasn’t stopped him from being intensely receptive to my preferences for pleasure. We have amazing chemistry in addition to our honest and communicative relationship. Our makeout (umbrella term for things that aren’t sex, really) sessions are definitely hot, and this is even after I tried an SSRI that deadened my sex drive and ability to orgasm for the past month.
About a week ago he tried fingering me for the first time. This sensation was absolutely incredible. Though I didn’t necessarily feel close to orgasm or intensely aroused, I was instead very relaxed and “melty” afterward. I felt much like I have when stoned off my ass – giggly, clumsy, and only wanting to curl up and eat a lot of food.
We’ve tried a couple of times since then, but last night was amazing. I’ve been weaning myself off of the antidepressant. Orgasms don’t take a half-hour now. Last night he used two fingers, and I felt that for the first time ever the horrible void of female arousal had been filled – the feeling of needing to be filled was gone and replaced only by intense pleasure and warmth. Hnng.
For so many years with only my own clitoral stimulation, I figured that I would never get anything from vaginal penetration. I worried about my sex life in the future — would I disappoint my SO if I didn’t feel anything from him? Would I be a dead fish in bed without use of the clitoris? Well, my God, was I wrong, and I am so glad. Because of my SO I was able to feel actual pleasure in one of the ways I’m meant to, and rather than feeling nothing I found myself asking for more. 10/10 would recommend. Whew.
((this was a bit more graphic than it should have been, maybe, but can you blame me?????!??))
ArcticWolf1997: This is a pretty insightful story; I always wonder how exactly women feel about sex as well as what they feel during. Well I have to say that it sounds like you’ve had an excellent experience, so keep doing what you guys are doing. Sex can lead to many health benefits after all.
smash_diggins: Lucky girl, thanks for sharing.
throw7574: Interesting. Lucky!
skahammer: >I felt that for the first time ever the horrible void of female arousal had been filled
Now there’s a description that’s going to stay with me for a while.