I feel like I’m getting desperate
I use to be so positive about not wanting to be in a relationship and that being a virgin was okay at whatever current age I had been. Seeing as I’m only 20, I was right! There was nothing wrong with it. However I’m so fucking lonely. I want to be touched. I want to be loved. I want to experience what it’s like to be in a relationship. I want to go down on my partner when they’re least expecting it. I want to see what sex feels like. I want to cuddle when it’s cold and watch movies together on rainy nights. I want to have long conversations about shit that doesn’t even really matter. I wanna give my body up to the person I care about the most, and let them do what they want to me. I want to experiment and try out all my sexual fantasies. Is this unrealistic? Naïve? I don’t fucking know but I want it and I’m getting real tired of waiting or not being attracted enough to people. I’m sorry if this sounds really angsty or something but I’m just super frustrated.
Jessicaaa37: Well maybe you are getting desperate. I think everything you said is completely normal. It’s nothing to be ashamed of at all. I’d suggest 2 phase. 1. Create a few goals just for yourself, you work on things in your life, get to know yourself better, going for a walk is always good. 2. Try actively/casually looking for someone you like, someone you can be close with and can be yourself around. Take your time. You got this!
5A55edMonkey: Just to add to jessicaaa37
Finding hobbies that involves others.
Are you into gaming (not computer)? Usually comic shops host D&D, Pokemon, etc no nights.
Exercise/sports I run and cycle going in group rides/ runs
I know how depression can set in when you are not active. Still takes a lot to convince myself but once I start I’m glad I did.
HuckleberryPoundTown: What are you doing to make the things you want happen?
uandtehbae: Time to pursue someone
llamagoelz: Question, if you read what you wrote above from someone else, would you think they reasonably could expect to be both happy and hold out on a relationship (still unsure why you are doing this in the first place but…)?
I think you have answered your own question here. Go out and explore. be gentle with both yourself and others, take it slow, and use protection.
persistence11: Time to start sucking some D girl