Through this experience, I was surprisingly able to let that all go and it was one of the most empowering experiences of my life. My body is a vessel for which my soul resides. It is nothing to be shameful about. It’s ironic because when my body fit society’s standards, I hid it. But now that my body has changed into something that can’t fit into a size 00, I was able to show it off more. That right there is amazing to me. Once you take away the judgments from society about a body being a sexual object and let yourself be free in your body, you feel free in your mind.
YOU ARE a slut, a whore. YOU ARE too modest. YOU ARE too fat. YOU ARE too skinny. YOU ARE too buff, you don’t look feminine. YOU ARE too weak, you need some muscle. Just a few of the messages from people trying to tell me who I am over the years. But you know what I’ve also been told? I am compassionate, I am genuine, I am a free spirit, I am an inspiration. Sometimes it’s hard to remember who you are when the world keeps sending you mixed signals about your appearance. But while my appearance is often scrutinized, I know who I am on the inside. – Kaitlin